Tuesday, December 12, 2017
Friday, June 9, 2017
"No more sorrow" was the title of the filter in this picture.
Jesus has taken away my sorrow! There was a physical downpour during most of our vacation, and I believe a spiritual one too! Jesus welcomes our questions about life and He holds us just as a child squeezes their favorite toys. Thank you Jesus for showering me with your presence through our miracle child whose gaze at life encourages me to gaze upon you! Five years ago, I was six weeks pregnant with this little miracle. Little did I know, at five and half years old, this little miracle would take me on a journey of finding true satisfaction in Jesus alone.
Little I did I know that all my efforts of having another child (fertility treatments and adoption) would fail. Little did I know the blessing that was in store through the questioning, the silence, and the downpour of depression. Little did I know those long eyelashes I noticed when I first gazed upon his face would be a constant reminder of God's long lasting faithfulness. I always thought he needed a sibling to journey through life with. Now, I am realizing he has everything he needs with Jesus by his side. So when our son questions the complexities of life, we can tell him to ask Jesus, and we will know he will be held tightly. Jesus has heard my prayer and He hears your too! He is still the God of miracles! I believe all babies are miracles. However, when you go through any form of infertility or pregnancy loss, I believe the miracle of a baby becomes more meaningful. I also believe finding satisfaction in Jesus is a miracle too.
"Help me, O Lord my God. Save me according to your steadfast love!
27 Let them know that this is your hand..."
Thank you Jesus for rescuing us from sin and sorrow. You are our lifeboat!
Monday, May 22, 2017
sweet to the soul and healing to the bones." Proverbs 16:24
but what she said is in my heart. I must trust God when He doesn't make sense.
I am paralyzed with fear.
I remember the days of old.
I ponder all your great works
and think about what you have done.
I lift my hands to you in prayer.
I thirst for you as parched land thirsts for rain.
for my depression deepens.
Don’t turn away from me,
or I will die.
Let me hear of your unfailing love each morning,
for I am trusting you.
Show me where to walk,
for I give myself to you.
Rescue me from my enemies, Lord;
I run to you to hide me.
Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God.
May your gracious Spirit lead me forward
on a firm footing.
For the glory of your name, O Lord, preserve my life.
Because of your faithfulness, bring me out of this distress.
In your unfailing love, silence all my enemies
and destroy all my foes,
for I am your servant."
"The emotional side of secondary infertility
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